I suppose the only difference between your beliefs and mine is that I believe in and trust God (I am not religious). Where it serves me is that it enables me to believe that there is a larger plan, unseen by us, at work. For example, much as I despise everything about Trump, I can see where he served (unconsciously) a larger purpose by stirring many Americans out of their prior political lethargy. I felt the same about Bill Clinton: he gets no personal credit for it, but his blow job in the White House had to prick (no pun intended) the millions of American men who are cheating and lying and abusing through their sexuality. I believe that’s the way God works.